Say people badmouthing people. Its not as if you didn't do that yourself right?.
Other people are changing without you seeing it.
So why aren't you changing too?
I know my attitude got problem.
That's why I'm trying to change.
When I see your attitude to me, even if I change, I also don see the need to let you see.
What for do I let you see it when you just continue on commenting it?
Change your attitude first before you can even see whether I did change or not.
You have friends not because you think you are so popular.
People have friends is because of your attitude.
Of how you act, how you treat them.
Recall.
How do you treat your friends?
Show off in front of them?
Bragging how awesome you are?
Badmouthing others behind their back?
Thats how you treated her
Badmouthed her behind her back.
And actually told me how you hate her.
Seriously ah.
You don't treat her as your friend but she is my best friend.
If I told her how you badmouthed her, what do you think she will feel?
Ask yourself from the bottom of your heart.
Did you think that you might have done something wrong?
If you think you didn't, I can tell you.
All your friends will leave you someday.
Its just a matter of time.
I have already reflected on myself and understood.
What about you now?
I'm not trying to scold you.
I just wanna let you understand.
If you think otherwise, I have nothing else to say.
I'm not treating them for granted.
People leave you is because of how you act.
You don't treasure her, but I do know.
No one knows that best but yourself.
No ones knows who I treat best. Who I treasure most.
Cause all these, I am the only one that knows.
So, don't bother commenting on it.
Cause this my how it works for me.
Everyone has different ways of expressing.
For me, I don't express it on the outside.
Because I believe all these things are only expressed in our hearts.
For ourself to see.
For ourself to understand.
Not for all to see.
What do you achieve by letting all others see that?
Nothing, isn't it?
Instead others will start to mock and commenting.
So why not just keep it inside your heart?
If you think I'm taking my friends for granted, that's where you are wrong.
Its hard to find true friends in this world now.
People are having masks over their face.
"Wolf in a sheep's clothing"
I believe you have heard that before isn't it?
Not much people understand me cause the trust between us is not strong enough.
Only trust between people who are strong, can understand each other.
Like me and Maegy
I can tell her everything cause I believe in her.
I believe she won't spread everything I told her to any others.
But I can't believe that you won't.
Because you betrayed the trust again and again.
I showed appreciation and sincerity.
But what did you guys do?
Disregard it.
Treated it like shit?
You guys made it hard for me to open up.
Show you guys what I really feel.
Its really hard.
Cause that trust is slowly disappearing.
Trust is like an eraser.
It becomes smaller whenever you make a mistake.
After mistake and mistake, the eraser is become smaller and smaller.
And it slowly just disappear.
This is what is happening to our trust.
Bit by bit, disappearing.
If you don't even understand me well, what right do you think you have to comment on me?
Just ignoring me, don't even bother to care.
Is that what you meant by you don't see me trying at all?
You think I'm self-centered.
I'm changing.
You are self-centered yourself.
And you don't bother changing it.
And you want others to change.
You want others to change to suit you.
But why must others change to suit you?
People find friends who suit each other and not forcing the person to change to suit you.
That is not friendship.
I care. I concern. From the bottom of my heart.
You guys think I'm just faking it.
If you don't believe, I don't mind.
Cause I have already done my part.
It was you who started it first and you can like just push the blame all to me?
That's just really great.
If you know who is this referring to, please understand.
If you don't, and you just ignore this,
I don't mind.
Cause I have already done what I am supposed to do.
If you don't believe what I'm saying.
Then nevermind.
Cause like what Zane said: 'Try your best', 'Show her your sincerity', 'If there is a will, there is a way'
I tried my best.
天灰
如果你不再出现 我的世界 还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什么叫永远
想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
遍遍还会关切 你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭
如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言一点点捶毁
想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
遍遍还会关切 你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭
This is song is describing how my mood feels now. Sort of. ^^
