Mood Swings ):

Although I have decided not to get angry anymore, that doesn't mean you guys can cut the limit can. Even though I decided not to get angry, that doesn't mean when you seriously cross the line, I won't say anything. Know your limits and everything will be fine. If you wanna compare, sure. I will compare. But think before you say anything. If you don't know anything, don't pretend to know. Cause that is seriously idiotic. If you don't know, you can ask or check on the internet. Don't be a smart alec.

Did you think why do I smile? Sometimes I may be smiling to cover up the fact that I'm pissed off. And sometimes I smile to cover the sadness. You would rather believe the fake smile than to show concern? Even Maegy and Erra and others, they would show concern and ask: 'What happened?'

But would you? No? You would just sit there, see that I'm sad, and just continue to crap and talk other things. You didn't show concern at all. Did you know that seeing that, makes me feel more upset? Even though I don't show that I'm upset, but, can't you see? Even people who don't know me well can also see that I'm upset. I have known you for how many years? And you just don't bother to show concern? What kind of a friend is that?

A definition of a friend to me, is that, that will cheer me up when I'm upset and vice versa. They would help when I have problems and lend a listening ear. They would also sometimes lend you their shoulder for you to cry. They would encourage you and never leave you when you are in trouble. But do you think you fit in any of the description? Although different people have different definition of friends, but this is what I think. Although my definition isn't specific. But this is how I think.

I am not for you to criticize, to be a friend to you when you need me and kick me away when you have no use for me. To help you complete your homework and then just kick me away when I need help with my homework. Help you when you need help then kick me away when I need your help. What do you do when I told you that I needed help? Kick me away? Leave me alone? Ignore me? What do I do when you told me that you needed my help? Helped you? Took the blame for you? What about you? Just ignore me?

When you think that I'm angry, that isn't really angry. I was just abit of pekchek. But did you try to understand why did I feel that? No? You just took everything for true when you see it. You wanted to compare who is more cham? You really wanna compare? Even if you are in pain, do you have pain till the fact that you are unable to attend school? Me? When I'm in pain or sick, it got worser and worser till that I was unable to attend school. But what did you say? Did you even show concern? You didn't! You actually said that I purposely wanted to skip school. Did you even know that I was sick? NO! You didn't even show concern! You only showed concern to your friends! What about me? I ain't your friend? You may not treat me as your friend. But I can tell you. I do treat you as my friend. And I always will.